So I am a blogger now. I year ago I was so "above" all of this! I didn't have a myspace, facebook or blog or anything of the sort. I was way to good for all that. Now I have all three. A year ago I was also trying to balance a brand new marriage, school, job, starting a new buisness and a handful of church activities. I was really important! : )
I remember the day God slammed the breaks down on my busy life. It was September 15, 2006. I woke up with a lot to do...work school...the usual...and went to sleep late that night after spending six hours in the ER. I was sick...really sick....I had mono the worst my doctor had ever seen (It is bad when your doctor is suprised and worried!). Anyway God had to literally stop my body from moving. He knows he can't teach me a small lesson! Since then He has been drastically slowing down the pace of my life. It has been a fight! One day, not to long after I had been diagnosed with mono, I was feeling very tired. It had been a difficult day at work and my energy was draining. I clearly felt the Lord telling me to lay down and get some rest. Being the work-a-holic by nature I brushed it off and decided to do some work outside on our patio. After messsing with the flower I turned around to find my door locked tight! I was so mad at myself! I was barefoot and in some pretty dingy work clothes and had to go to my neighbor to borrow the phone. It wasn't that long before Mark would be home so I decided to wait it out. I sat down on the cold concrete on my front porch. It felt good to sit down. Then a I heard a still quiet voice, "I told you to rest...". I realized God will have His way rather I cooperate or not. Through this journey of slowing down I have learned so much. I have had time to sit out on my front porch by choice. I have had time to blog and myspace...to connect with people who I haven't talked to in years. I have had time to be creative and experience God in a whole new way.
I really think this is more the pace of life God designed us to have...the enemy has lied to so many Christians and convinced them otherwise. When you slow down you see, hear and feel so much more. Life is not a blur.... I thank God for my husband! He has such a gift at relaxing and enjoying people and life!
Jack Johnson wrote a great song about the desire to slow down. I think it so reflects our culture today!
Jack Johnson - Breakdown Lyrics
I hope this old train breaks downThen I could take a walk around
And, see what there is to see
And time is just a melody
All the people in the street
Walk as fast as their feet can take them
I just roam through town
And though my windows got a view
The frame I'm looking through
Seems to have no concern for me now
So for now I,
I need this here
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
This engine screams out loud
Saying the beat gunna crawl westbound
So I don't even make a sound
Cause its gunna sting me when I leave this town
And all the people in the street
That I'll never get to meet
If these tracks dont bend somehow
And I got no time
That I got to get to
Where I don't need to be
So I
CHORUS
I wanna break on down
But I can't stop now
Let me break on down
But you cant stop nothing
If you got no control
Of the thoughts in your mind
That you kept in you know
You dont know nothing
But you dont need to know
The wisdoms in the trees
Not the glass windows
You can't stop wishing
If you dont let go
But things that you find
And you lose and you know
You keep on rolling
Put the moment on hold
The frames too bright
So put the blinds down low
But I can't stop now
